Coach | Guide | Companion
Bethany
Joy
My story is one of performing, unraveling, and discovering that relationship was the point all along.
I have tried everything else.
I have performed my way through faith, managed my way through pain, and searched for healing, freedom, and the life I thought I was supposed to be living. I kept missing it at every turn.
What I discovered, slowly and imperfectly, is that healing was never the destination. Relationship was, with God, with myself and with others.
And healing kept showing up in the middle of it all. What changed wasn’t a method.
It was a relationship. A relationship with God that became more honest and personal than I knew was possible. A relationship with my own story, especially the places I had spent years managing, avoiding, or trying to fix. And a relationship with my body, realizing many of the emotions, fears, and patterns I could not think my way out of had been showing up there all along.
For years, I knew many things about God, but intimacy with Him felt hard because I had become disconnected from parts of myself. As I learned to slow down, pay attention, and bring my whole self into His presence, I began to experience His love in places where fear, striving, shame, and self-protection had lived for a long time.
The body wasn’t the goal. It was an invitation. A way of noticing what was happening beneath the surface so it could be brought into relationship with the God who had been there all along.
What changed everything was learning to ask a different question. Not what is wrong with me but what happened to me, and then letting my body, my story, and my whole being have an honest answer. My body was never working against me, but it was holding what I had never been given space to feel. And God never looked away from the questions, the anger, the places in me I thought were too complicated or too broken for Him to stay.
I’m a certified trauma-informed faith and embodiment coach through Freedom Movement and a Story Work Practitioner in training. The authority I carry did not start with certifications. It came from doing this work in my own life first. Questioning, wrestling, learning how to tell the truth, and learning how to stay.
You don’t need someone who has it figured out. You need someone who knows the terrain….I do.
WHAT I BELIEVE
God delights in your presence, not just the version of you that has it together or the version of you that has quieted the questions or finally stopped feeling so much.
You, exactly as you are, are the one He moves toward.
He is not afraid of your anger, your longing, your grief, or the places you have been hiding even from yourself. He does not ask you to clean yourself up before you come. He has never looked away.
I believe your body is not interrupting your relationship with God. It is inviting intimacy.
The places you have been rushing past, the tightening in your chest, the weight you carry that has no name yet, the stories your body has been keeping safe, are not obstacles to intimacy.
They are doorways.
I believe you have been carrying stories you did not write and patterns you did not choose. And I believe God is not surprised by your fear, your shame, or the ways you learned to survive. I believe hope is not what many of us were taught it was. It is not an outcome. It is not protection from pain.
Hope is the presence of God’s love in the middle of it.
This work is not about fixing what is broken.
It is about remembering what has always been true and creating enough honesty, safety, and relationship for that remembering to happen.
You do not have to become anything else to begin here. You just have to come.
